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There are days when I act a little strange, & you ask me why. I seem distant, I don’t talk much, I suddenly get too pissed, I cry at once.. & I just don’t look okay to you or anyone else. Every time you ask me what’s wrong, I don’t seem to find enough words, the right words to tell you that. Maybe its my ego, maybe its something else.. but I fail to tell you that the reason I become this person sometimes is just that I don’t want to lose you. Everything is perfect, then why do I fear losing you? Because I love you. And I think this fear is one of the natural things that comes along with loving someone truly. I have never loved anything or anyone this way. This love is just too deep, too real. Losing the person you love would be a tragedy. Losing you wouldn’t be that simple, it would be losing myself. You’ve become a part of my life that I can’t let go off that easily, you’re that part of life which is just there.. just there, completing the picture in the most perfect way. And although I wouldn’t tell you this, but yes.. I don’t want to lose you. I am scared of losing you, ever.. Because of, anything. I’ve always believed that nothing lasts forever, I’ve always believed that there’s an end even to the most perfect relationships.. but then you came along & you’re changing this belief of mine every day. You make me believe that maybe, maybe I was wrong for not believing in happy endings. But how can I believe in happy endings when I don’t know what tomorrow holds? How can I believe in it when the happy ending has no date or time set to it? All I know is that if I were to give you my life, I would. You’ve built me up into a stronger person by being by my side & yet you’ve made me so weak, so open to defeat, so truly in love.. 
But if I were to tell anyone if I’ve ever wished for it to not be this way, or if I regret becoming so weak in love.. I would say, no.. because I won’t regret knowing you, ever.. I won’t regret seeing your smile or kissing you. I won’t regret hearing your voice. I won’t regret the times I laughed & cried with you. Because you didn’t make me weak, you made me stronger in so many ways. 
I love you so much.