Missing

Do you ever have that feeling when you miss somebody so much, but you can’t do anything?

Well, I’ve been having that kind of feeling right now. It’s complicated ‘cause that somebody is my bestfriend. Yes, bestfriend.  But, we’re having some kind of a big misunderstanding lately that’s why.

I want to reach for that someone but I can’t. I’m scared. I’m shy. I don’t know what will happen. And also, I said to that someone not to respond on me even if I cry out calling her. (And she totally is not responding, by far) I’m just afraid that if I talk, another problem arises. I just don’t want to cause trouble anymore even though it’s not really my intention as she may realize.

Now, I’m writing this as an indirect message for that someone to know that I hope you are fine. I can see you’re doing well. You’re having a good time and most especially, without me. You’ve been very strong even with that “thing” you’re carrying there. Oh yes, I can still sense and see.

I am not expecting you to see me as what you’ve seen me before. To treat me like a special person. To give effort and time on me once again. But all I can say is I am still here willing to be your bestfriend again.

I am waiting for that day when everything will be ok between the two of us again.

Well, take care now. Stay safe and always stay pretty. Keep smiling,