I wish.

Dear D,

I wish that we were just friends from the beginning.

I wish that you can open your heart to me so that I can be there for you, when you need someone to lean on to.

I wish I could stare at you long enough to know the colour of your eyes, hold you tight enough to feel your heartbeat that makes you cry.

I wish that you’ll laugh and smile all the time.

I wish that I can make you happy, whatever it takes.

I wish I’m that somebody in your life.

But heck,

I wish that I wouldn’t have to wish for you.

I wish that I would not fall for feelings that I have for you.

I wish that I’m strong, tough like when you’re not with me when I need you.

I wish that I’m not worried when I heard that something happened to you.

I wish that you’re no one to me, like I am no one to you.

I have missed you for as long as I knew..

You. It has always been you.

Without reasons.

May it be now, years ago, and the future to come, it’s just because of you.

Sometimes,

I wish that we never happened, so I don’t have to suffer like this ever since we’ve meet.

But I wish that you had the time of your life when we were together, because I know that every single time I see you, you’ve been the sunshine of my world.

Where did I go right to have you with me.

I wish that I know the answers.

I wish that I could let you go.

Instead, I wish that you were here.

I can’t help but to say goodbye,
and wait for you to give me your heart,so that I can love you the best that I can.

or else,
you can just, please.. just give me back mine.