dear DSA

“I love you like I hate you”, did you hear that song? I know that lyrics is crappy, but still. 

They say I am too naive and was never really in love. But why do I cry everyday thinking of you? I know this is very unlike me. I am way too rational to cry for someone who I so little. And yet, I do! What really kills me is knowing the fact that things could have been different. It has been two years and I still spend sleepless nights thinking if you could have met someone else or whether you ever cried for me, or whether you still think of me? Boys don’t cry, do they? 

I know I can never say these things upfront. Not because I am scared of rejection but because I would hate it if you said ‘yes’ as a compromise. I hate people making such sacrifices. That’s not romantic at all. What’s romantic is knowing that you really liked me, pined for me just the way I did, or still do! Did you ever..? 

I wish you’d ask me upfront if you ever liked me. I wish.. 

Love,

You know who!