how you destroyed me

I wanted to tell you how you broke my heart. 

How you destroyed the last spark of happiness I had.

You made me doubt. Doubt my path, who I am and what I want.

You knew it when you’ve met me, that I am weak, that I need to believe that I can, that I am something, that I can feel worth something, anything. You knew it, and you took advantage of it. 

I fell inlove with you, and it wasn’t hard to realized. You smart, you knew that this is what will happen.

You saw I look at you, how I try to please you, how happy I was for having you around. 

You knew that I will break, that I will lose the semi-human form I adapted to myself. 

Of course, you did, you kept of saying that yourself. How I will never have someone like you.

How I don’t deserved you. How I’m going to be single, alone, lost.

When you didn’t really say it, I could have hear it in your voice. 

When you made fun on the fact that all my friends are getting married, of the pressure I’m in.

When I told you how you hurt me, when I cried next to you at night. 

And I’m so angry, but only on myself. 

I knew it will end, but I still let myself starting it, getting in to it so much.

I thought that I am strong enough, ignoring that fact that I’m a lost person. 

A dependent person, that just need someone to tell him that everything is right. 

I need you so much, your skin, your smell, your touch.

Your smile when I say something stupid, our conversation, our nights. 

How could you just leave me, stop connected me, forget everything.

You promised you’ll come, you promised you’ll miss me.

If I meant nothing to you, than nothing will hurt you.

Why do we need no contact, when it’s only me that cry all day.

Why won’t you just continue with our game, with mailing, facebooking. 

The cost for you is nothing, for me it means life.

You were the best thing I had, the only time I was complete and happy. 

Having you wanting me helped me love myself. 

Why can’t you just give it to me, until it will naturally fade out?

And you promised. You promised.

And like anything else it was just a lie. 

Once again, I got a proof of how pointless my life. 

Disturbed girl who love you, but mainly hate herself